>>360
I don't like scat, or watersports.
That being said, it doesn't arouse me sexually, but the notion of the shit I said in the OP, (slugging her randomly in the gut), leading to her sobbing and shitting, does "excite" me. There's no sexual element to that, though, I've always had sort of random bloodlust and desires for violence in me ever since I was a kid. I guess it's sorta like the feeling you'd get if the roles were reversed, and you finally had a chance to just viciously beat on the person who'd been abusing you. Which admittedly stems from what I say in my response to the other anon.
That all being said, it's not just some desire for "retribution." Since the notion of like this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MDTu8t7INA8
actually does shit for me. Some self destructively crazy chick vom'ing for me out of devotion, just wilfully destroying herself, via bodily torment, all for my own amusement, it, I don't know man. It does stuff.
>>361
Yeah. I'm not into the guro or general hard shit like that either. I don't really know what it is, but it's sorta like, the appeal of throwing a grenade into a museum exhibit, I guess? Destroying something beautiful and innocent, who's only purpose was to be there for you. Something about the utter betrayal and destruction is almost, I don't know how to put it, beautiful? That and something about seeing how utterly in control of someone else you are, and how helpless they are to stop you. Especially with it twisted in their mind into some form of loving you. I can tell where it comes from in me (desire for some form of "retribution" for perceived unfair treatment from society), but that doesn't change the fact that I just love seeing this kind of stuff, in a sort of guilty and shameful manner.