/late/ - Late Nights

>and I thought everything I felt was just an illusion
This is correct. It is needed to force into achieving the hardcoded objectives.

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No, I never really had any of that.
I assumed at times that I had to have someone else to make things easier, but no one wants someone who just uses you as a trauma dumper.
So the best I can do is do what I do night and day and, even if it is hard at times, try to find peace with it.

>Romantic love?
No. I don't really believe in it. My childhood was surrounded by charades of romantic love which all boiled down to a simple observation:
>love is sex and sex is hate and hate is the pathetic desperation to be loved
>Real Love?
Yeah. Yeah... Some sunny day... Some sleepy dreary rainy day. Some other time we'll be together again.

>>3151 (OP) 
Sometimes we meet that someone who lights that spark in us but seldom do we end up with them. Trust me Anons, comparing everyone to that initial spark will make you miserable and alone. You Will never find someone else who will spark you as intensely, but you will find someone who will spark you just enough to remind you of the sensation, make sure yo
u give those who do a genuine try and put in the effort.

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>>3182
Good post

I did find "the one" and the issue is I was also her "one". But for a number of reasons, she wasn't the mother I wanted to give my children. So pure and dignified. If it wasn't for the kids I would've thrown myself at her feet with no hesitation, but I had to make it clear there was no future for 'us'.
I wanted to rip it like a band aid so I just vanished and cut all ties but knowing her Im pretty sure I caused irreparable damage to someone who was already vulnerable. Fuck. It fucking sucks. She didn't deserve it and I know being rejected from the one you think is meant for you probably messed her up. Fuuuuuuck.
Hope she'll move on and God forgives me, because I don't think Ill be able to live with this shit on my conscience. I can't let feelings distract or slow me, I have to think about what's best for my children and work to reach it.

Do not look for love.
Seek a harmonious household and when you finally build one love will spontaneously bloom. We were created to desire the other sex and want to procreate, as Anon said it is only a feeling intended to nudge us in the right direction. Raising a family is one of the best things anyone can do, it is not only the most sincere expression of love but also the realization of its true purpouse.

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>>3151 (OP) 
i've never felt love it's basically an alien concept to me. noir is a great anime though.

>>3183

that’s a reduction of love to biology and duty, half-truth dressed as wisdom.

love isn’t just a tool to build a household, it’s a force that shatters illusions and awakens the soul.

to say “don’t look for love” is to tell a seed not to reach for the sun.

and no, we weren’t just made to procreate.

life’s too short to settle for harmonious roles that keep the soul asleep.

seek love and ignore this empty anon.

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i never had a partner but there were moments where i knew i could be with someone if i tried to have a deeper connection with certain people, but im too familiar with being alone and miserable so in those moments i pretend to be clueless and let it pass by because im too chicken shit scared of the kind of change in my life it would introduce and i think i would be a terrible partner myself

If you want love, take this anon's advice: do not waste searching for it in western women. Doesn't work, they are soulless corrupted harpies. 

Find yourself a nice girl from a place where feminism is an unknown word.

>>3201
I remember in the 90's the trope was the hotties were the divas or pushy ones, and it was the trade off for landing a smoking hot one. Now you get that same experience with all of them, just without the hot part (what a deal). 

>>3151 (OP) 
I thought I did but it's a 'stay together for the kids' situation I'm afraid. If she snaps out of it I'm here for it but she's glued to the phone and has been checked out for years at this point. I'm going to start selling my stuff so I can pack a suitcase and go when the time comes.

>>3201
lol, lmao even

>>3151 (OP) 
I've had crushes, but they never went anywhere. There were girls who were into me, but I was too much of a homebody loner to act on it.
>>3181
I think romantic love might be the most superficial form of love there is. Raw erotic passion seems to be fleeting for most couples, so a lasting relationship is generally going to have be built on more than that.
>>3201
Feminism is spreading even outside the West, and women in those countries will just end up the same way if you decide to bring them home with you. There's also the possible genetic difference aspect to consider.

I just don't think that's any kind of solution.

>>3201
This is the worst advice you can get from someone who has zero experience with women. You can't take those third worlders out of their natural environment or they'll turn into a worse version of western women. They need their families around to function so your only option is moving to their shithole, Asians and Africans only care about your money, Arabs are batshit insane, maybe South America could work but they are whores too. And don't fucking mention eastern Europe they are the biggest whores in the entire world.

>>3205
That's right modernity makes women unfeasible. I think kikes do it deliberately so smart guys recognize what's happening and are forced to die off and then kikes get to rule absolute cattle at their leisure. Atrocious race.

>>3206
Lol. History shows us time and again this Khazarian Mafia you speak of, typically find their quietus at the end of a rope (or similar). Your games can only work for so long, friend, and then it'll all come tumbling down on your heads as usual!.  :)

>>3205
As you stated yourself, women are a function of their environment. They are supposed to be submissive and easily bend, it's a feature not a bug.
So the responsibility always lies on society (men) not to let them go haywire and ((( their ))) job is to ensure you are too busy, tired and demoralized to even care.

I definitely second the advice of not shipping thirld worlders out of their habitat because that will not end well.

So is the corollary that, instead of looking for the right woman, one should look for the right social environment where women behave ?