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>all my mistakes and mishapes are contantly being shown to me as a way for my inner self to say "You already made a fool out of yourself, what is even the point of trying?"
This is a berry common thing. The part of your brain that is doing this thinks it’s protecting you but it’s not too clever so it’s actually holding you back by doing what it thinks is it’s job. The trick is to make it feel satisfied so it stops.
For example, another anon once gave this tip: When your brain replays an embarrassing interpersonal moment from your past - perhaps a time when you felt ashamed or did the wrong thing - freeze it, and pick out the other person or people involved. Say to yourself, “This memory has helped me to learn <whatever> and now I can put it away.” In your imagination, go back to that situation as vividly as you can, allow the memory to habben, and then before it fades, imagine that the other person or people speak to you and forgive you for what you did, felt, said, or whatever. Make it shrimple, clear, and to the point. In this way the part of your brain that tries to keep you from repeating mistakes will be able to stop tracking that memory because it will feel that the matter has been settled, and the memory will trouble you less. If it comes back at all, it should come back with reduced intensity, and you will be able to repeat the process. Other memories from your embarrassment stack might begin to trouble you instead, so shrimply repeat the process for them. In this way you can become able to put away those memories where they belong and free up your energy for use in the moment to help create for yourself the future you want.