/late/ - Late Nights

>>3874
>>3877
related:
https://alogs.space/robowaifu/res/43642.html#44095

@OP
I was just wondering if you are using Icecast for your station? We're trying to figure out how to see the number of current listeners for streams, and I thought you might know how to find out. Cheers.

I'd kind of like the radio back too.

>>3546
>Probably the only one who ever truly has.
Pretty sure that God loves you anon.

>>3151 (OP) 
In terms of romantic love, I've had a few painful crushes that never went anywhere.

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In high school, I knew a girl who I grew to like. She was a few years below me and we knew each other because she'd hang around our friend group sometimes when she was new, but otherwise we didn't speak much. Fast forward a year and I started taking a different route home after school because it was shorter, and turns out she took that route too. We ended up speaking fairly often, and I didn't feel anything at first, but later I did. She was very innocent and just generally seemed unfazed by the negativity of everything around us, she was really bubbly, in other words. She had a very proper accent, and would gasp whenever anyone swore. She was beautiful too. I ended up feeling a sort of paternal desire to protect her, and I think that was also the first (and only) time I really had a crush on a girl that was more than just physical attraction. I still think about her every day even though it's been a long time since we spoke. It's not healthy, but it's whatever.

>>3986
>It's not healthy, but it's whatever.
I think most can relate. Do you ever see her now? Maybe try striking up a conversation with her again.

>>3151 (OP) 
It's hard for me to say if what I had or felt was love. In middle school, I asked a girl I was friends with to be my valentine for reasons that amount to "just because I could." Still, I was elated when she said yes. We talked on the phone and played games together. Then, we went on a single date at a school function, and things went sour. She bored me by sitting in place for the whole thing, and it was a double date, so I took the other girl's date and had a good time. When we finally did do something together, her friends didn't include me, which made me upset. For a variety of reasons, I just didn't know how to behave in a relationship, and this was the breaking point. We broke up shortly after it ended. Still, I don't think she dated anyone after me. We had a short stint where we talked and sort of confided in each other in high school. At the end of high school, I tried to stay in touch with her, but she told me that the feelings that were there when we met just didn't seem like they were there anymore. I understood and didn't try to fight it. Her last text to me was "You always did," which is clearly in reference to me understanding. That line still eats at me.

I don't really know if I'd call what was there "love." I had never really had a best friend before, just a line of people who I one-sidedly attached the title of "best friend" to. The only propositional relationships tha

Just ask yourself what kind of wonders this sort of contemplation as an introspective adult can give you? Does the irreversible erosion of that childlike perception from your developmental years through accumulated knowledge ultimately diminish or enrich your ability to be happy? As you grow older, you begin to develop a more nuanced grasp of what 'happiness' even is, for better or worse.

It didn't for me. My situation started getting better during my senior year of high school. I do feel hopeless about my life situation and the state of the world, but there are times I feel genuine happiness despite being a lot more jaded than I was when I was younger.

>Does happiness end with your teen years?
Nope, just puberty and high school.

I always pitied miserable people, when I was in my 20s.  Whenever I saw a movie about drug addicts, or villains whose sadness, nihilism or anger created the conflict of the story, I thought about how not to be like that, because I found it pathetic: these dumb bastards all waste their lives because they can't conceive of just moving on from their tragic backstories.

Maybe the common denominator to these characters is that they drag the past with them like a ball and chain. 
 But then, Batman had a tragic backstory, and you have to wonder why he became a hero instead of a villain.

I think the answer to that comes down largely to aesthetic sense, the ability to care about more than his own needs, and optimism about people and the future.  It's these qualities, more so than a willingness to wear your undies over your pants and jump off buildings, which defines "heroism."

Modern life requires a little heroism.

>>3958 (OP) 
I'm in my 40s and yeah. You'll never feel the same lightness again and if you pretend that you eventually it'll be just sad.

My best memories are also from the 90s/early 00s and the world was less of a fuck then now anyways (or rather, it was the same fuck considering Epstein et al. we just didn't know about it I suppose).

Also enjoy getting older and random health problems out of nowhere.

>>3958 (OP) 
It can be a lot harder to be happy. Instead of focusing on trying to recapture the physical aspects of your teenage years, you should try to recapture the sort of drive and desires you had. You have a ton of freedom and have said yourself that you "keep creative." You could try and focus what you have now into fulfilling not only what you wanted to do as a teen and child but also as an adult. If you want to be systemic about it, just think during the day about what you experience and have and how things could be better. After that, try to work toward them.

>>4002
But you're not me!

>>4004
sorry for confusion, i meant i am 3999.

anyone else having a hard time connecting to archive.org over tor? it seems like almost all connections from exit nodes are being dropped, which is very rude!

>>4009
yes

>>3970
I could be better. I wish I were. It's so hard to find a job. I have plans to be more focused and systemic about it after I finish a project, but I'm worried that I'm just getting my hopes up and that the effort I put in will still amount to nothing.

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>>3174
>Thanks for all the information, tho.
You're very welcome, Mate! What kind of turned things around for me personally was just this realization:
Be the future you want to see!

Everything else pretty much flowed out of that one personal determination. Good luck with your search.

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take me back

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>>3033 (OP) 
Gopher, BBS, Usenet, IRC. You could even keep them behind dorknet/derpweeb.

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90's to late 00's IRC quote database backup: https://bash-org-archive.com/?browse

Another 90's to late 00's IRC quote database: https://qdb.us/random

This site shares text files like they did in the Internet circa 80's and 90's: http://textfiles.com/directory.html

These three sites help capture the feel of pre-Web to Web1 and early Web2 Internet. As well as this delightful flame from '98:

https://web.archive.org/web/20001110014700/http://deeplight.net/editorials/redpaw/welcome.shtml

>webring
https://nightcoreandcaffeine.neocities.org/HTML/webrings
https://vastrecs.neocities.org/links/webrings
https://tuffgong.nekoweb.org/webring-list.html
https://brisray.com/web/webring-list.htm
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1dEYsZdPV_MbAL_WKTNb8n75jmh-ThaFJR8krzzZk83s/

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>>3718
>>3719
I'm playing Morrowind again lately. This game is fabulous.

I've had this site open for ages. It just looks neat. I haven't even looked around it.
http://www.gryphonresourcesinc.com/about.html

Perhaps the oldest database of paranormal stories, bigfoot and UFO and ghost encounters and so on, still going since 1994. Time capsule of what Internet horror was before the whole lame creepypasta fad.

https://theshadowlands.net

https://old-search.marginalia.nu
"an independent DIY search engine that focuses on non-commercial content, and attempts to show you sites you perhaps weren't aware of in favor of the sort of sites you probably already knew existed"

https://wiby.me
Good for web1 style webpages like those mostly seen on neocities as well as 90's and 00's Web.

>>3556
Found these pages just now clicking Random at Marginalia:

https://privatebin.net/?64814072bb641cb3#826inxS7Pn9zwbB8bGZ9duX9u8uVKSxhZV12DdN2zsq6

Don't wanna deal with any sperging should I have dropped all these links in this post.

various media files related to chan culture
https://info.stylee32.net/

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>>1467 (me)
I rewatched TNG since that post.

First and foremost, you can really see in the HD version how thin the costumes are, especially in the first two seasons, but also in season 4 where the enterprise encounter's Tasha Yar's ridiculously hot sister.  The camera really eats her ass up in one scene.

I also enjoyed the accidental '90s racism, like how the Ferengi are rather negroidic to begin with, and only convert to judaism later.

Moral quandaries interested me little, except to laugh at them when they were stupid or insane.  Picard insists on destroying the ship— again, because some kind of "artificial life" has emerged, and we have to pretend that it can't be mass-produced.


The 7th season is where everything that had been good about Trek dies in realtime.  Ro and Wesley abandon Starfleet for what I've come to refer to as "magical terrorism."

It's like in Fight Club, The Matrix, American Beauty, or Office Space, where having a dependable income is, like, squaresville, maaaaan so the moral of the story becomes "you should quit your job and... I dunno, I'm sure something better will come up."

I don't know if it's really hippie boomer bullshit or something more nefarious.  Either way, it was the most interesting detail of various episodes of that season.

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>>3841
Picard's utter pissedness and inflexibility are admirable and make for a compelling episode.

>In spite of all you've done to me, I find you a pitiable man.
Who can't relate?

"There are four lights" is shorthand for the entire exchange.  It's like saying "you have the whip hand over me now, and you might even kill me, but I will always hold you in contempt."

Hell, it's like saying I am immune to your bullshit propaganda too.

>>4006
kek

>>4007
I can't help but read it in his voice.