/late/ - Late Nights

>>1602 (OP) 
unironically knowing that God exists is such a reassuring thought
not really the "God loves you and planned good things for you" angle, but his simple existence is enough
I know everything was planned, not just my life, but everything, with wisdom beyond our comprehension. I know that there is more to this existence than this life.

It's not so much the expectation of new good things, but rather the knowledge of all past things we take for granted like sight, audition, health, free time (not so much now because wageslaving but i know itll come back as it has)

>>1616
>Clearly a God who would invest this much time, space, matter, and energy to accomodate us for such a relatively-short period of time, our 'window of opportunity' so to speak (apprx. ~120Kyrs) is a rather extravagant being
from a human's perspective, is dropping crumbs to an ant extravagant ? God could spend entire eternities for his creation and it still wouldn't even register as an effort

and I'll even point out a blessing more precious than all the material things we have: the ability to find joy in contemplating the creator instead of crying like about every disease, most of which have cures and treatments anyways

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The only thing keeping me alive is that I don't want to die a retard.
My whole life, I have been put down and looked down upon and ridiculed by everyone due to my incompetence in daily life , my inability to communicate with others, my low executive function etc.
My family constantly reminds me that I am a complete failure and that I would be helpless without their hand holding.
I have a great desire to make myself better, and I have belief that I will improve one day, so until that day comes I will keep living and I will keep trying to improve myself.

>>2628
Things will be better as long as you fight for them to be.
Don't judge yourself too harshly by what others think of you, even if it's important for self-judgment. In any case, don't let them destroy your self-esteem and your will to move forward.

Godspeed

>>2625
cringe
are you korean by any chance

>>2628
very based, never give up
>My family constantly reminds me that I am a complete failure and that I would be helpless without their hand holding.
sounds like a nightmare
even tho a few of my relatives are like that, I thank God that most of them aren't

>>2628
Proud of you, Anon.
Keep moving forward.
Just take it one day at a time, OK?

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>>1102 (OP) 
Man I am so pumped for winter this year. Cant fucking wait, fuck summer, fuck humidity, fuck bugs. I just wanna be bundled up in my cool winter clothes and just be comfy as shit. If none of you have ever been winter camping, its worth it, just make sure you have the proper gear.

>>1609
>Only good thing is eating bread with some soothing tea in your thermos whilst the wind coos outside.
Sounds comfy!

>What about you anon?
Well it's finally tapering off the long stretch of 100-110+ temp days now, and it's pretty comfy-cool at nights. So yeah, nice time of year.

>>2494
>If none of you have ever been winter camping, its worth it
Yeah I've done that many times, it's the best.

>just make sure you have the proper gear.
Ehh, doesn't take much tbh.

*  STAY HYDRATED!111!!ONE!!!  Winter can be exceedingly dry, so you can dehydrate w/o really noticing it -- especially if you're exerting yourself (like climbing up hills).
*  LAYERS  If it's frigid, just bring a bunch of socks, shirts, pants to add more layers.
*  BOOTS  It's very important to keep your feet warm & dry. Have good wool socks on hand. BTW, if you lose feeling in your toes, YOU'RE HAVING A MEDICAL EMERGENCY...
Deal with it immediately!!
*  High-calorie nommies like chocolate trail mix is essential for comfy times in the wilderness.
*  Hot choco or other nice beverages, too (see above).
*  Strictly limit alcohol. None at all is even better.  :)
*  A good hunting knife. Essential for every man anyway, so yeah.

I wasn't looking forward to fall or winter last year, and I'm definitely not looking forward to it this year. I really dislike the climate I live in.

poorfag so can't heat my house, gotta put hot water bottles in my sleeping bag to sleep

>>2501
solid advice anon

>>2160
thepiratebay.org for movies and films is one of the best.

>>2160
These are the ones I use:
https://solidtorrents.to/
https://1337x.to/

rtorrent which is a terminal client
I used to love using it on my computer but now it runs on my server that I access through SSH and it downloads at the speed of light and seeds all night long

>>2160
yify torrents for movies
before it got cia'd rarbg was good too esp or show

skidrowreloaded and skidrowcodex and fitgirl for gaymes
nyaa for anime obviously

>>1314
you can get a cheap one for 30 bucks a year on lowendstock.com/deals
I especially like the AlphaVPS deal

>>2461
>rtorrent
love it too but it's a bitch to config

Feel better; and I hear ya. 

I usually just try to hide and ride it out on cold meds but that doesn't always work depending on your coworkers and their density. It's rough pretending to care on hangover or sniffles days!

>>2623 (OP) 
Winter always fucks up my circadian rhythm, then once daylight savings hits, good-night. I'm tired all the time and feel like I'm running a fever.

>>2634
I know there's replies, but this post feels like a final testament written on a cave wall from a time forever out of reach.

>>1888 (OP) 
It likely would have experienced a resurgence with soyjak.party newfags and then Gamergate 2. It would have continued being the big 4chan alternative. Jim would be making money off of it. 

It would be way better than the webring.

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>>2634
Here's a screenshot.

>>1939
All those pipe dreams ITT presupposes that the tech wouldn't crap its pants like a inbred Habsburg attending rave and was actually updated. Remember how shit Infinity became over time? This is why the cripple hired N00l as sole developer of Infinity Never to begin with. I will ignore his actual motive for joining the Infinity dev team of finding out who was talking shit about him on /cow/ so I can rant more about Image board software Therefor I think it is impossible to have any idea how the culture would have changed over the last 5 years, because the the site itself would be different. For starters there might had been a working over board. Do you have any idea what a blessing this would have been? There would be more communities besides /pol/, /cow/ and /v/. Soyack.party newfags would have filled the place with shit that feel edits. What some don't even know that the soyack party itself was a good target for mockery due to its sped admins. Then there are the people involved. You have no idea how Mork and Nepfag would have reacted to a flood of tourists or how CM would have run the place if the cripple didn't sabotaged it by criminial means. Yeah, there is a reason why he is living in California instead of the "best country in the world" right now.

>>1901
Isn't 8moe like that?

>>1926
>When a site goes offline, some of the users never come back because they are posting in that forum or imageboard out of habit. And when it disappears, they don't search a new one because they lost interest a long time ago.
This strikes a chord, it really does.

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>>2703
>>2655
Normalfags go back

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>>2711
You normalfags want tinfoil, death, misery and suffering? You can have it. But not here.

>>> infowars.com
>>> https://21stcenturywire.com/
>>> https://jaysanalysis.com/recommended-reading-2/

Also serial killers and most spree killers are fake and gay. Read Programmed to Kill by Dave McGowan to finally learn it.

>>1836
kek THIS is what was blurred? bravo jeet. at least i was able to find this cozy altchan

>>2731
the tourists are a problem but i'm a bit thankful, i was on late.city years ago and lost the place but i recognized it in his video and found out we got moved to trashchan, it's good to be back!

I took a look at your book and wrote a longpost but it dead together with expired captcha, so I'll condense it to a sentence and a quesstion.

S: This book isn't about psychology, it is a whistleblower's report about governments being the main source of all crime, which actually is obvious if you give it a thought.
Q: What did you want to say and what exactly I were supposed to learn from this book?

>>2705 (OP) 
I've got a crew. The ship's been dashed upon the rocks and we may never be able to patch it back together again, but we keep in touch. Some more than others. I'm the others, but I've always been a bit of a rogue, and that's how I like it. I've got my own adventures to go on alone.

>>2705 (OP) 
I wished I had a close group of friends when I was younger, but at some point I realized I'm too much of a loner for that. It would be at odds with my most basic nature.

>>2718
>>2718
So understandable

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Anime reminds me too much of my teen years. Severely unwell, staying up late watching Adult Swim, emotionally living through cartoons on the screen. If I start to get invested in an anime I can feel my head getting teleported back to that time and it'll mess me up for days. I usually avoid watching any of it now. I'm a grown man with a wife, kids, a career. I have my shit together, but there's something hidden in me I don't really think or talk about that reacts strongly to it. I spent many years getting comfortable in my depression and can feel it calling me to revert back into a type of sadsack that's entirely below me now. Seeing the big, interwoven friendships in anime are the worst part. I always wanted a devoted group of friends when I was growing up and was too isolated to have it. I tried to pull people together, but I was always the "optional" member in those groups throughout gradeschool. By the time I became somebody people flock to, my life was moving too fast to fit in much of anybody outside of my family. I have a beautiful life now with very little to complain about. I'll have my oldest friend over to grill on occasion. I get meaning from mentoring young men who have no idea I'm even capable of feeling this way. I just can't watch Evangelion without feeling like I'm 14 again and nothing has changed.

>>2745
Interesting case. While I think all male souls have some tendencies in these directions, yours seems a bit extreme IMO. Shouldn't feel surprised though that you feel you 'have little time' now. Kinda obvious effect when you leave behind copious introspection in life.

Glad you've 'found your way' in life. Just don't forget your roots, and remember there's a God above. Cheers, Anon.  :)

>>1097 (OP) 
Greetings from the Tahuantinsuyo, I hope you get the Lemon Verbena flavor directly from Peru, as the export plastic Inca Kola doesn't taste nearly as good.

Try Lomo Saltado and Chicha Morada too.

>>2179
tegaki uses HTML5 Canvas. i assume you're connecting to here through Tor which i believe blocks Canvas by default because it can be exploited as a fingerprinting technique. that's why your tegaki is colorful vertical bars: whenever you see this glitch, it's because of Canvas being blocked. i wonder why. i hope someone smarter than me can explain it.

>>2741
I confirm it's due to canvas fingerprinting mitigation like Tor uses or if you use an add-on to block it.

>>2742
do you know what causes the colorful bands? why isn't it just black?

>>1800
That's neat :) I hope you get up there one day. Parts of nature like that always attract a strangeness Maybe because it, itself, is an anomaly in nature where thousands of miles can seemingly look the exact same. Strangeness attracting strange people. I don't mean strange in a bad way either...


I'm glad that brought on some nostalgia! It's always feels the best when it occurs naturally through something you read or see.

>>1801 
I understand completely!

>>1816
>Going at night is better but never allowed, which I hate..
I know that feel. My sleep/wake schedule (can't remember the word) is both longer than other people's (about 30 hours), and I also prefer the night simply because the annoyance of other people's noise is much less (usually) overnights. So I naturally tend towards being awake/working overnights.

Once, I went to totally-wasn't-trespassing-after-hours-though a state park to try and spot a huge owl I'd seen earlier at night there. Fortunately I had a really nice Meade spotting scope with me, because when I came out a police cruiser was blocking my car in, with it's lights flashing (no siren).

I waited for the cops to come back out, then distracted them by using the telescope to show them Jupiter and it's moons, which satisfied them I guess because they didn't give me any further shit after that.

>>1919
>can't remember the word
Circadian Rythm

I saw a fat garter snake in my yard today. I've lived in the same place for over 20 years, and it's the first time I've ever seen a snake there.

>>134 (OP) 
Been listening to Rambling Jack Elliot again. In 912 Greens he ends the song with a verse.
>Have you ever stood and shivered just because you were looking at a river?
I was in that last thread. It's been many years now, since I was there, on the banks, in winter, but when I close my eyes I can still glints of moonlight dancing on shattered ice in the blackness of night, and hear it crackle and break in the force of the current, and feel the cold breeze come off the water. Amongst my generally hazy memories this stands out for its crispness, its clarity, and its completeness.