I am tired and always trying to distract myself, wanted to get good at my productive hobbies and right now i have eberrything i want: entire day of free time (for months now) and decent money, but i keep feeling tired and never do anything but being passive, eat and sleep.
It's been months and i am in shambles, i know what i need to do but when i start the first day, i stop the next one. There must be a technique, but right now seeing the profiles of some of my friends i haven't been in contact was enough motivation, they got really good at their stuff i am also trying to do, they worked hard to reach a point in which they could finally try it without burden and i realized i already reached that level, just need to "enjoy" and start trying constantly.
Today is the day, i saw one of my i suppose former buddies do the same things i did and became as knowledgeable in certain topics apart from being berry good at what i want to do.
He's smart and a good dude but this is ludicrous, his hard-working attitude really made him reach a good level and i am filled with envy yet i don't want him to go down at all, i want to be as good and compete because i usually was as good in some things and better at most, the pandemic really stunted me hard and now that i think of it that started months before when i was spending lots of time on the screen since 8ch fell down and we started searching for imageboards.
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