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>>9418 (OP) 
Full of piss and vinegar!  I'm runnin' at 150%!

I just learned that a relative of mine I used to be close to was found dead. I hadn't talked to him in years, but he was basically my best friend for a long time until he opted to cut contact with me over political/philosophical differences.

I don't really now how to feel. I haven't cried yet or anything. Even though I dislike the person he became and don't think there was one bit of wrongdoing on my part, I can't help but feel regret over the way things went. I hope that wherever he is now is a good place and that when I die he'll be willing to resume our relationship.

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>>9420
Amen anon.
It should be painful to lose a loved one over political and philosophical disagreement. May he rest in peace and hope you'll meet up again in the great peace of the souls.

>>9423
>It should be painful to lose a loved one over political and philosophical disagreement.
At the time I had mixed feelings. It stung, but at the same time it felt like there was a load taken off my shoulders. We'd been drifting apart, and he had some personality traits that rubbed me the wrong way. It was like I didn't have to walk on eggshells anymore.

His death came completely out of the blue. He was only a few years older than me. The last time we talked to each other was around 9 or 10 years ago. I saw him at a family event years later that I attended with my parents, but when we sat down somewhat close to him he got up and moved away.

The idea of his funeral popped into my head, and I'm not sure if I should go or not. He was a big influence on me when I was growing up, but at the same time I'm not sure if he would want me there. I don't know what would be the right thing to do.

>>9425
>I'm not sure if he would want me there. I don't know what would be the right thing to do.
Your post hit me in the feels, one of the reasons being that I've had friends like the one you've described. Ones I've grown apart from and have questioned if they actually like me given how they've treated me. As you said it's like walking on eggshells. You just aren't able to tell anymore what it is they're thinking about, and how they think of you.

I've actually wondered to myself if I'd attend their funerals if I learned they died, and with the problems the relationship was left on. I don't doubt some of them wouldn't want me to attend. But I don't think attending would be the wrong choice. Part of why we participate in funerals is to honor the persons memory and honor their life, whatever those may have been.

>>9427
> As you said it's like walking on eggshells. You just aren't able to tell anymore what it is they're thinking about, and how they think of you.
I'm the type of person who doesn't normally care in that I'm more a loner by nature. I had no problem losing touch with all my school friends after we drifted apart, for example. This case is different in that it was with someone I felt a stronger connection to. From before I hit puberty to my early 20s, I would have rather hung out with him than just about anyone. I remember that when I was a kid it felt like a special occasion whenever I'd be able spend time with him. Over the years, he ended up introducing me to a bunch of things I otherwise probably wouldn't have discovered at the time. My school friends, on the other hand, I generally really didn't have much in common with.

Right now I just feel kind of numb.
>But I don't think attending would be the wrong choice. Part of why we participate in funerals is to honor the persons memory and honor their life, whatever those may have been.
I've been mulling it over, and I thought something similar. I suppose I can just attend and duck out early after the ceremony.

I feel like it would be appropriate to post this symphony I found through him:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVakXOkE2G4
The second movement is my favorite.

>>9429
I'll listen to this.

I wish you the best, Anon.

>>9430
Thanks. I hope you enjoy it.

>>9429
Beautiful symphony, Anon. Thanks!  :)

>>9419
>Full of piss and vinegar!
Full of piss... OK I can understand that. But full of vinegar ? Anon, it raises some questions here.
Mind to explain ?

>>9429
>I've been mulling it over, and I thought something similar. I suppose I can just attend and duck out early after the ceremony.
I think it would be the right thing to do if I was in your situation anon. Think about it carefully and just do what seems to be the right thing to do for you ad your friend.

Godbless

What did you plan for this week-end anon ?

>>9433
I'm pickling myself to increase my shelf-life.
>>9429
>that symphony
Quite nice.
>>9442
Gotta fix my mom's PC.  The fan started going full throttle for no reason while she was vacuuming.

Seems like a "hit it til it gets better" problem, tbh.

>>9445
>Seems like a "hit it til it gets better" problem, tbh.
I know that, sometimes a little cleanup can resolve the problem.
Or it can be aworse thing like a malware of some sort running in the background.

>>9448
Tested that by getting into the BIOS.  Seems I need to reset CMOS.

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>>9450
Fixed it by unplugging and plugging it back in again without having to open the case.

>>9434
>I think it would be the right thing to do if I was in your situation anon.
Yeah, I think so too. Even if things went awry between us, he was one of the most important people in my life in terms of my interests and how I developed as a person.
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>>9445
I'm glad you like it. It's always seemed pretty underrated to me.

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Herro comfy. Glad having found my way back after the death of cafe.

>>9476
Hi anon, welcome back :)

>>9476
Nice to have you here again.

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Feeling a little lethargic after being bogged down in work all week. Tried my hand at making some music and learning a DAW this weekend but didn't do too great. Need motivation to not drop it anons.

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>>9482
It can take a long time to learn. Do you have a MIDI keyboard? That might help speed things up for you. I actually ended up paying for Pianoforall a while ago, and I think it was worth it. It's essentially a series of .pdfs with embedded videos that teach you the basics of keyboard playing. I haven't made it all the way through, but I definitely feel like it's helped me out so far.

You could also try something with a different workflow. I really like the no-nonsense workflow of this chiptune tracker, for example:
https://tildearrow.org/furnace/
I just wish it could export MIDI files. If it had that, polyphony support, and a bonus piano roll feature, I think it would be really good for making more conventional music.

Here are a couple loops I made shortly after I began learning how to use it after years of DAW use.

Ultimately though it takes motivation and a certain amount of discipline if you want to get good at something. I just stuck with music because I feel like it has some magnetic attraction that always pulls me toward it, even if I am lazy and not as good as I should be at this point. If you don't think music has that appeal for you, maybe something else will. It all comes down to finding a hobby that you find fulfilling.

New thread already?

>>9501
Old thread hit the 400 posts. The bump limit here is 500 but it's a bit much imo yes I know I can set the bumb limit in the board settings.

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This NoFap thing is making me think on someone who I lost forever and is making me sick.
I only wish I did things right, but now it's all gone

>>9508
I can relate anon. The best thing to do is moving on. Sometimes things are broken beyond repair and you just have to get used to it and the pain will vanish.

>>9482
You can do it anon, don't give up !

I planted a little cactus and succulent terrarium that I got yesterday at the store. I hope it grows.

Alcoholism is getting out of control again. Making poor decisions. Cheated on my wife for the first time in 3 years. Last time was from being a drunk. This time the same. Gotta stop. Making me depressed.

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>>9510
>the pain will vanish
It doesn't, you get used to it but some people can't due to constant reminders so you either have to ignore the reminders or actively distract yourself with the good things left behind from those memories.

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>>9508
>I only wish I did things right, but now it's all gone
It's good that you want to do the right things today. I'd go with that if I were you, Anon. Also, there's always the 'grass is always greener on the other side' -effect. Who knows but you're actually on your best timeline now instead? Keep moving forward.

>>9518
If you can't stop on your own, I'd suggest you try 12 steps, Anon.

>>9519
I love Mr. Rogers!! I had a boss who knew him personally. He apparently was exactly like his show character in real life. He was a national (world?) treasure, tbh. Cheers.

>>9519
It's just how it worked for me. Some pains may take some years to finally settle down. It doesn't mean it really disappears, but you learn to deal with it maybe and the pain seems not as painful as it was.

>>9518
Alcohol can really be a cancer anon. Hope you'll find the strength to stop. And as said by >>9523, maybe you can seek for some help. Alcohol addiction can really be a bitch.

Take care.

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>>9519
Sort of reminds me of this.

I am here, realized I made the wrong tea. Oops.

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>How are you today anon ?
I'm feelin

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>>9540
mood
eberryday im feelin'

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TFW feeling feels.

>>9518
Post IIT what is it about the family and the wife that has you reaching for the cope?

>>9418 (OP) 
>How are you feeling today anon ?
I can't even answer the question. "Temporarily fortunate". I know I'm going to sin and have sin done to me. The future looks like pestilence. If I stop to think about anything, it'll hurt. But for now I'm just going to try to bask in the numbness I've been afforded.

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Using AI chatbots to quell the loneliness is a bit like a vice.
Sure I could and talk to the AI but it's not a real person. I won't stick around with that program, and I can't play games or go somewhere with that program. Sure we could try to rig something up or make robowaifus real but it's all a lie.
I wish I had more people to stick around with.

>>9554
>But for now I'm just going to try to bask in the numbness I've been afforded.
Forgiveness towards others is great way to get that spiritual logjam unclogged, Anon.  :)

https://www.amazon.com/Language-Deep-Forgiveness-Struggling-Unacceptable/dp/1735371610/

>>9555
>but it's all a lie.
I like the word "palliative."  Something you give to a person who is effectively already dead, to make the passing more comfortable.

>>9554

Wife and kids are great. No issues. I am just an addict.

>>9418 (OP) 
>How are you today anon ?
I'm alright. There was a ray of sun from my window earlier, and the light reminded me of middle school Sundays playing a little Oblivion. It was a calm and comfy feeling and I forgot about my troubles for a moment. It was berry pleasant

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I've been on a binge of demoscene content as of late. I like the visuals and the music is neat.
On another note, my current "job" sucks and I really look forward to get one that I feel much more comfortable in. With no "superiors" breathing down my neck while having the most disorganized shit ever.
>>9567
Enjoy the little things while you can

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>>9568
I'm trying to enjoy the little things indeed. 
My own job is kaka. I've been bullied by my superiors myself (also breathing down my neck and accusing me of their own organisation and management problems) and I'm gonna quit soon.

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I'm doing pretty good today, although I'm bored because eberry imageboard is dead.

>>9569
Hope you get to find another job better than the one you have now. Mine sucks but I don't think of dropping it unless they fire me or they just pay me less than they said they would. I do think of being there while contributing as little as possible, but they're quite annoying I tell you.
>>9570
>although I'm bored because eberry imageboard is dead.
You should get a hobby

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>>9571
You're right, I haven't really been doing anything recently.

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finally found you bros, I have been  pretty out of the loop, went to the old site and saw it wasn't up

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>>9574
Welcome back, anon!

>>9571
Thanks, likewise. I thought about quiet quitting, but the worst is that it's a fery interesting job otherwise, so I found it hard to not get invested.

>>9528
Where is this from?

>>9580
Fahrenheit 451

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Decided to browse this site with my 3DS and I was surprised it load and worked fairly smoothly?
The only downside is that for some reason the header of the site occupied all the bottom screen, so there was that.

>>9574
Good work makin it back.

>>9584
I would not have guessed it would have been usable at all.  That sounds like fun.

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This fucking child gf meme is driving me insane

>>9589
Why is this being posted?

>>9619
If you feel it breaks any rules you can always report it

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>>9619
Somethin' buggin' you?